My friend stood me up because they were hanging out with someone else. They later apologized, but it just reinforces that I am not as important to them as they are to me. That’s how it is in all of my relationships. They have a bigger place in my life then I do in theirs, I am an afterthought. I know there are people who love me and people who like me, but I’m the backup person. I’m the second choice. I feel tired and I feel just so very sad.